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September 1st came faster than I thought. August was a busy month and a blur. From moving into the new house, to my 30th Birthday, to the Back To School Drive, I’ve had zero time to sit down and connect with you, my Blog readers. Lets catch up...

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Business is... Business, still an underground king riding dirty. No consigns, no investors, no celebrity clout. Just direct-to-consumer sales from the site and a pop up every now and again. Slow grinding til I can finesse more overhead capital to fund more projects and ideas. I’m styling more shoots and connecting with more and more people that love my style. Only thing i hate is how everyone is dictating what’s what by the likes and followers people have. Shit isn’t even high quality but if you have the following you can regurgitate that bullshit and get rich off it while real artists starve. Clout worse than crack in 2018. 

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Mentally, I’ve never felt more in tune creatively and with the things I want for myself. I’m literally manifesting my dreams with positive affirmations and abiding by the law of attraction and the spiritual laws of circulation. You give positive vibrations and those vibrations return to you. Do good the more good comes to you. Also I’ve adversly gotten rid of all negative vibrations; things, or people that give me a feeling of uncertainty. I find that choosing and affirming the good in your life is much healthier for your mental than enduring things that you do not know are good or bad for you... consciously choose good feelings all the time. life’s to short for “on the fence” feelings. Well for me atleast. 

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Socially, I’ve accepted my role in certain relationships/friendships as a Support role. We all want to be that lead role but I’ve learned to not force anything with anyone. And one of the hardest lessons I’ve had to learn in life is that some people do not value you or your time the same as you do theirs. Sometimes the goalposts move as people grow. Sometimes you’re in a persons life to prepare them for their next lesson or to repeat the last. That’s with friends, lovers, and even family. So instead of me feeling at a lost in learning this lesson the hard way. I changed my perspective and see things as knowledge gained instead. Learning what I want and don’t want for myself and my future. Seeing what signs should have been red flags before, that I no longer overlook. Being more accountable for my shortcomings, communicating better, being mindful of my actions and the reactions they cause. I’m growing and failing forward. 

I’m proud of my gotdamn self and other than selling my Old School for drastically lower than what it was worth, Life is Good. 

Ain’t no complaints.

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If 2017 has taught me anything, its that Peace is Possible with a little Patience and Perseverance.

Prince George's county or the whole DMV area for that matter is relatively small when it comes to relationships and the degree of just how small the world is in a dating aspect. Peace is hard to come by. Many times you find yourself in a web of exes and "who used to fuck with who's". But in 2017 I found out just how lucky I am in finding my peace. not to say we don't have some type of previous weaving of unworthy suiters we have come across but at this point I don't even care. The past is the past for a reason and I am so grateful to be with who I am with now in comparison to those Ive been with before. 

For Instance I've been in a relationship where I was always accused of the same things that she ended up getting caught up doing...

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Ive been with a woman who could not communicate properly...

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And Ive also been with a woman who couldn't understand why I wouldn't chase her or play the silly games women like to play to get attention from you...

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Now I won't name drop or even acknowledge them in this post out of respect but I just can't help but feel Grateful to not have to deal with any of those dilemmas anymore with me and mine. I used to think I was crazy having to force myself to understand someone else's craziness in order to give love or even receive it back. We all have our flaws and I am the furthest from perfection but I now live within my truths and even laugh about the many mistakes I've made in relationships beforehand, knowing now that it never had to be like that in the first place. 

Shoutout to the artist Justin Richburg.